It’s been a while since I wrote, and frankly I really don’t know what motivated me to get my lazy ass up and hit something up now. When you hit a slump, you freak out in the beginning. Little do you know then that you’ll get used to not being able to read or write the way you used to before. You put “how to beat reading/writing blocks” in the search bar, and you are motivated to follow the tips written by fellow members of the literary world. You read the stuff on those blogs, you do everything you can, but the bad spell does not pass. You’re stuck with a block, you can no longer read a book in a matter of few hours or write anything you want to. Before you know it, you have lost motivation, you’ve lost inspiration. You turn to doing different things, and it slowly gets out of your daily routine.
I know how looking at others read makes you nostalgic. Looking at their expressions change as the plot moves ahead makes you miss the way you could go on reading the entire day but now can barely move past a page in the time you used to finish a chapter. Your ‘to read’ list keeps getting longer, you go to a bookstore and start feeling that you need to start catching up again. You carry books everywhere with you, but you just cannot get yourself to read them. You try reading your own work, but you are just not satisfied. You feel like there is something missing, and feel like you’re making things worse by trying to alter it. Discarding your own work feels like the only resort left, and you do so.
*sigh* *backspace* *sigh*
You’re slowly swirling into insanity, but fret not. One day, it will come to you all by itself. Someday after all this struggle between your mind and heart, you finally will find motivation to finish that manuscript or edit all your work, or heck, you will go back to completing a thick six hundred page book in a single day. Motivation will finally find you, and you’ll probably end up writing about the slump like I am right now. Till then, keep looking for motivation.
PS: You can find inspiration anywhere, even in the most random things, but I’m guessing you already read that, didn’t you?